Just to be clear, I don’t doubt God for a second. He’s not the problem. There’s a reason I could tell myself exactly what would happen next and get it 100% right. (BTW. This is absolutely me. I honestly don’t remember what I was like in 2019.. but I know it was very different. So much has happened. Big things. Lots of big things. That woman is gone. She’s not coming back. I couldnt go back to being her if I tried.)